I don’t know where to begin.
I feel like I’ve been lied to my entire life.
I’ve been taught to believe I control my life. That I can become the person I want to become. That I can experience the things I want to experience. That I can live the life I want to live. Fuck who I want to fuck.
That I can control everything. All of it.
And I can.
I control my life. I control my actions and they determine the results. I can go to school and work hard to get good grades so I can find a job that pays me well. I can find the perfect girl and live in the house with the white picket fence. I control where I vacation and what experiences I have in my life.
I control everything.
So maybe I haven’t been lied to…
Maybe I’ve just been misled into believing that having that control is the best way to experience life. Control allows me to live comfortably. I’m able to craft every detail of my daily existence precisely how I want it to be. No surprises.
Control gives me comfort.
I never have to leave my comfort zone. I can view the world through my own experiences … the ones I want to have for myself. Control is comfort.
I never have to do anything I don’t want to. I control that.
But what am I missing out on in my life by controlling everything I do?
What if I just let go and let life lead me instead of always trying to control life?
What if I just … let go?
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